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“I found a really great job opportunity, but it might mean moving to Oregon” my boyfriend said from the other end of the line.
My normally fidgety self went completely still. My boyfriend, Kaleb, went on about how incredible this job opportunity was and how it could help him reach his dream job while I fought tears. Let me give you a little backstory to this conversation:
- Kaleb and I both lived in Georgia at the time.
- We were discussing marriage and planning to go ring shopping soon.
- I had always figured we would continue living in Georgia, near both of our families and so
many of our friends. We had never discussed moving away before.
As Kaleb continued raving about the job I began silently freaking out. I had a picture in my head of how the future was going to look, and the thought of changing it to something so completely different terrified me. To make a months-long story short, Kaleb ended up taking the job and moving to Oregon. Two months later, he asked me to marry him. (I said yes!) And three months after the proposal, he moved.
Throughout this entire time I struggled with being ok with what was happening. I’m the kind of person who likes to make a plan and stick to it. Also, I’m the kind of person who likes to know what to expect so I can prepare. Needless to say, this game-changing move to a place I’d never been before was a major curveball. I needed to figure out how to be ok with changing my plans and dreams because I loved Kaleb and wasn’t willing to give him up.
Looking back I can see why it took me so long to come to terms with this new future. I had thought I needed to come to terms with every single possibility our future held and to be ok with all of my fears coming true. There were so many unknowns and I felt as if I had to work through each of them. Thankfully, that’s not at all what God expected of me.
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